Poem – Moonlight Love

Enthralling moon’s orb dazzles up in the night sky
Whole sky is lit up by the splendor of the moonlight
Autumn breeze slightly whispers a mellow serenade
Misty dew drops fall from the sky sprinkling over fields
Dainty and delicate are the night blooming flowers
They appear like sparkling flames of candles in the dark
An awakened owl sitting on a branch basking moonlight
While people dream in these solemn hours of the night
Gentle moon and twinkling stars are unseen during daylight
Their blissful beauty is admired by many keen onlookers
Brightness of supreme sunlight gives life in this world
Moonlight brings sweetness of romance to the lovers
Stars enable to generate wishful thoughts in the mind
Leading the lovers on the way to precious love’s desire

Poem – Razors and Nightmares

I stare at my ceiling,
I start to wonder, why am I not healing?
Then it dawns on me,
The nightmare clip starts to roll.
I shake and shiver and wince at every little thing.
I’m scared to death,
What does this all mean?
I start to cry,
I feel as if I might die.
Then I grab my blade,
The tears come quicker.
My breath starts to quicken,
My grip on the blade makes my knuckles turn white.
In the mirror is where I see that my ivory skin is now blotchy and red.
I tell myself, ‘This may be the last time, if you finally cut deep enough.’
So I try my best not to make a sound
As I sit up in bed and hold my wrist out in front of me.
I count to three,
One,
I put the blade to my wrist.
Two,
I start to add pressure.
Three,
I yank the blade across my skin,
It pierces and then I start to bleed.
I suddenly want it to stop,
But there’s no going back now.
I wonder why it came to this,
I know nobody cares about me,
I know nobody is going to forget me.
Quietly I say, ‘I’m sorry.’
But nobody is there,
No one will ever be.
I start to fade out of this world,
My addiction would finally be gone,
And so would I.
I was lost,
Lost and angry.
Suddenly, it was gone,
I woke up screaming.
The pain was oh-so real.

Poem – Dear Lord and Lady

Dear lord and lady
help me thru this say
during the time i
need you most

Dear lord
grant me the strength
to overcome
my obstacles

Dear lady
grant me the ability
to care and nurture
for MY mother earth

Dear lord and lady
may i say
thank you
for getting me thru another day

Poem – Bloody Wrist

I’m sitting on the floor
I’m crying so much more
trying to erase this pain
trying to forget your face
sitting here with the blade in my hand
running so slow blood dripping down
in a deep red color
flowing freely the way i want to feel

I’m sitting on the floor
holding my hand out
I’m holding a bottle
a bottle filled with pills
I’m crying so hard
the pain is unbearable
I’m feeling so weak

I’m sitting here on this floor
holding a blade
crying like crazy
trying to take this pain away
I’m trying my best trying to fight
my eyelids feel heavy
my door is so far
the whispered yells to far
falling deep in to sleep

deep..deep..deep..deep
I’m laying on a bed
I’m so confused
where am i?
my throat feels sore
my body screams in pain
I’m looking around
I’m in a small white room

i try to move,
my hands are stuck
i try to get up
i feel restraints
what happened to me?

I’m laying on a bed
trying to get up
my head hurts
a nurse is here
a shot is administered
i drift to sleep
I’m in the psych ward
why am i here?

I’m lying on a bed
laying so still
my wrists hurts to no end
I’m crying out loud
screaming and cussing
my body hurts
i can’t remember

all i remember are my bloody wrists
and a bottle of pills
all i remember is the pain i was in…..